Mental burpeesĀ 

Today’s burpees were a total mental battle. Not sure if it was because I’d only slept around 4 hrs, or if it was because I took a call right as I was warming up and ended up on the phone for an hour, or if it was just purely my own self sabotage, but I just didn’t want to do them today once I got going. 

I had my music blasting – I love to do burpees (and running) to trance music from the 90’s to early 00’s. Usually one of my Ministry of Sound or Gatecrasher albums. I was all warmed up (again) and ready to go. After 7 I thought “ugh these are tough today” after 15 I actually stopped and had an argument with myself in my head. 

Some of my excuses not to continue were:

“You will burn yourself out before the crossfit class you have in an hour”

“You can totally do them after Crossfit at the box”

“You’re just too tired for this today, you can make it up tomorrow”

“Maybe you could do them at work, or what about when you get home at 1am?”

Ha! Can you believe my sneaky brain? Like I’m going to drop and do 100 burpees at 1am! I even stopped the timer and paced a couple of times while doing this. Weighing the pros and cons in my mind. 

I’ll admit it. I almost gave in and walked away. But I didn’t. Something, somewhere deep inside knew that if I didn’t do them right then, it would be the beginning of the end. So I told myself – let’s just get to 30 at the very least and then you can finish later. 

Then I decided “ok just 20 more, you can absolutely get 20 more then you are half done”. I’d stop in between these sets of 20 and still have to convince myself to keep going. I got to 60 and figured “I may as well just keep going”. 

70 – “surely I could stop here and do 30 at the box right? Nope! Get your ass back down and jump back up!” 

77 – “my arms, my legs, they hurt. Move your ass Mandy!” 

80 – “ok just another 20, I’ve got this”. 

87 – “why do I keep stopping?? just MOVE!!” 

93 – “are you kidding me right now? Don’t you dare think about stopping!”

97 – “MOVE IT!!”

100! – “I made it!! I actually did it! You totally rock for doing that and I’m proud of you!!” 

I am so very glad that I decided to push through the mental blocks, if I hadn’t I would have felt awful about it all day. I didn’t press continue on the timer so don’t know what the time was. The time wasn’t important today, I just wanted to get through this even if it took me half an hour. 

I’m sure this won’t be the first time I encounter this over the coming weeks, but I have this here to remind me that I can absolutely make it through it no matter how much kicking and screaming my brain is doing. Also, maybe I should check if talking to myself this much is normal? šŸ™‚ 


100 days of burpees – day 3

Weird today. Without taking my planned rest periods of 30 seconds, it actually took me 10 seconds longer to complete. I did take a few seconds to catch my breath after 10 reps but not for a set amount of time, but also no longer than 30 seconds (except after 50 reps when I took 40 seconds as opposed to 1 minute) I must have been moving slower – perhaps because I didn’t take a full 30 seconds of rest? Or perhaps my body was tired after yesterday’s burpees plus the Crossfit workout, which also contained 80 burpees. 

Anyway, I have a time to improve upon. My first goal is to get below 12 minutes. It didn’t feel as tough today though. The only thing that really bothered me was the amount of sweat pouring into my eyes. Tomorrow I will definitely make use of the numerous headbands I own for working out. 

Here is the pic for day 3

I don’t sweat, I sparkle!

I’ve also been tracking what I eat this week to get a general idea of how many calories and macronutrients I’m getting. I don’t think we should count calories and believe as many in the paleo community do, that we should just eat when we are hungry and don’t when we are not. However, I’m curious to see what I’m putting into my body so decided to track for next 30 days. 

I have struggled for a little while staying on track with my paleo lifestyle. I switched to a paleo diet about 3 years ago, threw in some rounds of whole30 too and to date I’ve lost over 100lbs since I decided to just eat real food! 

A couple of weeks ago I decided to just relax my eating and just eat what I wanted for a day or two. My friend and I are both working hard towards our goals and both decided to have that weekend “off”. Only that weekend turned into almost two weeks for me. 

It wasn’t constant bad for me food, but enough to make me feel disgusting. I also had a very testing two weeks in my personal life and found comfort in my food – something I haven’t done for a long time. I was at a low point energy wise, emotionally drained and just felt disconnected with everything. Except food, obviously. 

Anyway, I got right in my head and in my soul – let me just say at this point, meditation is an amazing tool and I’ve realized I should do it consistently, but more about that in another post! – so I’m feeling much more like myself and able to properly focus on my food choices. 

It is so much easier for me when I’m feeling more balanced. I have had many temptations but have stood strong and I feel so much better already. I also have been making sure I get enough sleep. I noticed I was getting on with just 5hrs a night the last couple of weeks which is pretty bad. I always aim to have at least 8, and even have a nap if I can ha! 

I will share my findings with regards to calories and macros in the future once I get a good picture of what is going down. Although it’s a bit of a pain in the arse to track everything it also adds that little thought of “am I actually hungry or just bored/tired/thirsty?” so in turn it’s allowing me to better focus on my body’s signals too. 

Well, that’s it for today. Now I’m off to remind my kiddo about his 30 burpees šŸ™‚ muahahahahahaaaa